too bad soo bad

last day of summmer school, passed the class with an 'A'. its all good.

so around 8 , i ran moyse stadium with ksy and did some curl ups and legs stuff.
then after i ate in n out. what the ???????! what a contradiction i am to my own self right there.

so, i have reached the end of my crisis. whats done is done. moving on and forward. all grudges are left behind and all of that stuff. when it comes to all the bad ive seen and felt, its there but never forgotten. so whatever. im over all the immatureness, including my own. seriously now.

there's someone whos very important in my life who defines what i really mean by 'bff.' its fucking crazy how alex has been there throughout everything; times when i was wrong, times when i was right... the best advice giver. she might be different in your eyes, but to me shes an inspiration, shes the wise one, shes a dingleberry, wow. i love her soooooo much, and no matter what , irregardless she'll always be my bestfriend. so even when we're old and don't know what the hell is going on, she'll be the one ill tell my kids about. we know that it'll be harder cause we won't see each other that often, but heck, ill make the effort anyway. i hope we can make it happen bff... "/



beach tomorrow, one hue darker, here i come.



well, somethings are just meant to be kept to myself.


some arent.
borat & amy winehouse
GOJEOUS

paper planes

made of trident wrappers.

so summer school ends tomorrow. what a relief! my summer officially starts? haha, wow. well, i did my project, and i'm not that satisfied, but it's ec so whatevssss. i just hope i reviewed enough to get an okay grade on the final. i mean i understand all the chapters. But still,God please help me tomorrow.

finally, a performance, i missed the adrenaline rush of dancing. It's only a small varsity section, and i get to do a section of coed with baby daniel! :D<3 im stoked even though he is extremely tired by the coed part. ill have to control him, instead of him controlling me. aye ya yae. its okay, hes too cute.


well, my cat . . he's sick. and i feel incredibly sad when i see him. i swear i love my cats sooooooo much. ughhhhhhhh.man.


and just when i decide to talk it out, it doesn't seem like its worth talking out. and for the first time, i really feel like i'm past it. my heart doesn't race anymore. wow. its not like it was before. but i figure, you grow to understand things more when you talk so.. ill do so. i guess..


good-a-night-a.

in n out

went there with ksy and janey.
tastes superrr good cause i havent had it in foreva.

thank you for breaking me .
thank you for making me.
thank you for hating me.
thank you for loving me.
thank you for trusting me.
thank you for backstabbing me.
thank you for leaving me.
thank you for caring.
thank you for not caring.
thank you for being there for me.
thank you for talking about me.
thank you for not trusting me.
thank you for showing me what true colors are.
thank you for much more than you think.


need to do chem proyecto!!

Oatmeal

is my favorite. if you had to choose between oatmeal that has always been there to comfort you and salsa who's a fun little treat, what would you choose?

Escuela was okay, the whole earthquake was pretty intense. Most of the kids in my class were in panic and at the same time cracking up at the whole thing. My teacher was preetty funny, but the fact that we all knew what to do was pretty cute as saber tooth says. :]

anyway, i had a pretty good day. :]

things are looking up in some sense. not all the way up but somewhere near the level where planes fly. i guess things won't change if you keep to yourself all the time.


classic fatasses

school is done in 2 days. woohooooooooooooooooooooo.

shes fat

wrong connotation !
oh mama!

sigh.
missed


this was the day of the middle school track meet. That day alex cussed sam misa out for raiding her bag and almost punched him. We kept on cheering for the rms kids, this amazing girl who had a unibrow i believe, and i think xochil ?!? haha! they actually kicked some gluteus maximus. We went on the field and did headstands and posed for ksys camera a million times too many times. Then we went to the flashing lights dance after marci found me a ticket and alex got in for free. hahaha. Some guy asked alex to dance and she was how do you say, pretty funny about it. Then stevo gave me a ride home that night and everything was swell. i still love the twoo of them fyi.





this was some day after school, and obviously we had just won at Nationals, cause we are both wearing our backpacks ; i still have my tan wrist band on here, which took me about 2 months to cut off cause i was forced to by mrs sheldon -.-
kevin's hair was still long and so was mine . i miss mine . i don't think he misses his . . i don't see why he would. and at this time, i swear we were infinite.


just kidding :]


big tards!
haa

logos

i didn't like today . Schools going by slower and slower.
Practice isn't the same, even though it was kinda promised to be.
I'm emotionally and physically tired.

Brys at mi casa doing some scrabooking thing, ' im lost without you' HAHA.
highest point of my day :p

so, im concluding , and my conclusions are good enough for me babe.

au revoir.

your easy like sunday mornin

or a trophy boy.
woke up quick at about ten, washed my face then ate a bowl of apple jacks.
turned on the computer, my sims crashed :( fudgeeeeee.

well, ive been talking to tony alottttttt lately. His talks are pretty interesting and helpful.. well, i've come to realize alot of things about these past few weeks. ive gone from lovin to hating and all around. its pretty crazy to think of all the people ive lost, and all the others ive gained. in this pretty messed up world, only trust your self and if you screw yourself over, then you have noone to get mad at but yourself and your conflicts are all what, between you and only you. and apparently everythang happens for a reason .

&

well, i don't know mmm anymore. and there really isnt anything i can do anymore, cause ive tried so hard.
sorry to say but i think i take back the 'ill love you no matter what', cause its all gone too far.

its time to pursue my new self resolution .
peace outt butter cup.

i will work for

moneyyyyyyyyyyyyy!!
so gimme a yab, turns out i found my facking blogger account info thanks to some smelly egyptian boy.
you know what .
ksy needs a yab too. and bryan.
die down little pussycattttttttttt.
:D

hellogoodbye sunday.

woke up this morning at around ten ? it was pretty late, but i need sleep considering the fact that i hardly get any sleep during freaking weekdays. -.- then when i was awake awake, played some sims but got quite bored of it. . . basically i stayed home the whole day watchin movies, which i never do. i don't think today was a big waste though haha.

so at first i watched kill bill 2? or whatever, but it was lame so i was like whatever, then 10 things i hate about you came on, watched some of it, then some hick beauty pageant movie with kirsten dunst, then harry potter and the goblet of fire.
i'm kinda sad that i stopped reading the series of hp and how i never watched the fourth until today. its officially my favorite. and not to mention that i can't wait for twilight to hit theaters cause cedric diggory is DAYUMM!!! haha

well i had a pretty okay day just chillin at home. mmm. i miss your smell. really bad.

goodnighttt.

LEGIT-JOSHIN!

HAHAHA !!!!!!!!!!!!!!
LITERALLY.
today was a swell day.
so woke up, blah blah blah.
then went to the mall with my sister who bought me some crazy eyeshadow kit from sephora, shes getting my sister and me totally into all this makeup stufff, but i only do the eyestuff, so no cake face hur.

well met up with ksy and gabbie, talked and talked for like two hours, then ksy and i went to the americana to shop. i bought some shirt from urbn and he got something from xxi , typical stuff. so we chilled more, basically bonded. then i met up alex and amaris cause i felt like i needed to and most def wanted to! they ate and we just talked about life.. 'DUDE THIS PLACE IS TOTALLY LEGIIIIIIIITTT!!!'
crazy stuff that i really really really needed.
..rekindled the point of having girl bffs!!!<3 we had the bestest banana and nutella crepes in the world, HEAVEN ON EARTH! [besides jh]
we were on a hyper streak for about an hour , got free pinkberry from mark ignacio...
uhhh. kept on talking and laughing. seriously , i havent had an up like this in forevahhhhhhhhhhhhh.

so alex talked to me and basically i wasn't afraid to say what i had to say about the way i feel!! wowwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwww. felt good. and the funny thing is she didn't just laugh and stare at me like i would expect her to, she took it srsly and gave advice, which i will mos def take.

oh one thing ill do is keep my dignity, cause trust i am not goin to turn cruel or insane or whatevvvvvs.

i hope you had a great dayyy :]


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self explanatory.

p.s. if you ever get the chance, you should meet alex's grandma, if youre lucky she'll call you little princess!!
whatta cutie hahaha.

red white and blue

i forgot to say happy fourth of julyyyyyyy!

:]
goin to go watch fireworks with my fam,
with a dying phone.
bahhhhhhhh.

hope you all got tanned and
eat alot of watermelon, or something like that.

11:11

i hope 11:11 wishes come true .
half the time they do, which encourages me to keep on wishing, i mean
it doesnt hurt, so duh.

well ive found a new love. :]
these cute ass ball point pens from target,
i write so nice with them, at least better than my usual ugly writing, which is neat according to bry.

well, fresh start. ill try to forget, cause im done..
for now?

goodnight, sleep tight.

STILL NOT DONE WITH CHEM HW!!!



and i really like writing about random to important stuff on this thing, plus i love the colors on the blog. haaaaaaaa.


and btw, meet my sister, who's as obnoxious as i am, only eight years older!!
FINALLY UNIVERSITY!
congratulations today is her day , just kidding shes applying in october.
hahahaha

i will work for love

or will i not?call me crazy but, i lost the love i had...so who knows now a days.


well today was ksy's birthday :]
yesterday bryan and kquez came to my house to bake for him, but ksy knew cause i accidentally told him we were going to kquez's house to get cake mix, but i told him to act surprised, and i guess he really was surprised cause there were little twists to his day. I hope we [his close friends and bestfriends!] made his day special, cause i know he hasn't had one that has been very special in a looong time. I really hope I helped make it better foCHU`! :] haha, i think he's officially one of my best friends !

anyway, you know its incorrect grammar to say 'anyways' haha according to mr. guzman , says alex.

well i'm sick and tired of everything that has to do with what i've been going through the last few weeks. Who knew that people are that indecisive ? Out of all of this I grew to become angry, disappointed, and frustrated with myself and others. I have gone from loving to hating to loving to not giving a damn shit anymore. And frankly he doesn't know what he wants, which is why i'm giving up cause you can't go anywhere without knowing where your going. and i'm glad that i have someone like amaris who truly helps me differentiate what i believe is the truth and what the real truth is. I have made decisions and for now i'm following that and not my heart cause if i follow my heart then, that, that would be not beneficial for you. or would it? who knows. whatever. i'm really sad that things had to happen, but whatever, you gain some you loose some. it's going to be hard but it's what i have to do, or do i? well prove me wrong and ill change my mind..

and that paragraph isnt supposed to make sense to the whole world fyi .

well chemistry is like a little dose of harassment but its going by faster and faster. :p bahhhhhhhhhh.

peace buttertoast.


P.S. thanks for doing what you did, i know EVERYTHING