i will work for love

or will i not?call me crazy but, i lost the love i had...so who knows now a days.


well today was ksy's birthday :]
yesterday bryan and kquez came to my house to bake for him, but ksy knew cause i accidentally told him we were going to kquez's house to get cake mix, but i told him to act surprised, and i guess he really was surprised cause there were little twists to his day. I hope we [his close friends and bestfriends!] made his day special, cause i know he hasn't had one that has been very special in a looong time. I really hope I helped make it better foCHU`! :] haha, i think he's officially one of my best friends !

anyway, you know its incorrect grammar to say 'anyways' haha according to mr. guzman , says alex.

well i'm sick and tired of everything that has to do with what i've been going through the last few weeks. Who knew that people are that indecisive ? Out of all of this I grew to become angry, disappointed, and frustrated with myself and others. I have gone from loving to hating to loving to not giving a damn shit anymore. And frankly he doesn't know what he wants, which is why i'm giving up cause you can't go anywhere without knowing where your going. and i'm glad that i have someone like amaris who truly helps me differentiate what i believe is the truth and what the real truth is. I have made decisions and for now i'm following that and not my heart cause if i follow my heart then, that, that would be not beneficial for you. or would it? who knows. whatever. i'm really sad that things had to happen, but whatever, you gain some you loose some. it's going to be hard but it's what i have to do, or do i? well prove me wrong and ill change my mind..

and that paragraph isnt supposed to make sense to the whole world fyi .

well chemistry is like a little dose of harassment but its going by faster and faster. :p bahhhhhhhhhh.

peace buttertoast.


P.S. thanks for doing what you did, i know EVERYTHING